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I think a lot of the confusion in regards to subjectivity and an objective reality comes from the understandable tendency to interpret the quantum reality in terms of our physical reality, as opposed to our physical reality in terms of the quantum reality that more accurately creates the physical reality, as opposed to being created by our physical reality. At a quantum level, the apparent solidarity in physical reality is merely a cluster of subatomic energetic probabilities, taking on a temporary form of logical geometric and linear structure in the occurrence of observation. There are an infinite number of simultaneously existing structures within the energetic probability-field, forming an infinite number of alternate realities.

How is it, then, that we inhabit the reality that we do, with all of the circumstances it entails? It is the natural result of our state of consciousness, with its various beliefs, logical structures, and definitions. In reality, there is an incredible chaos that exists, that includes all of these different potential realities. Our brain, or our consciousness, creates order out of this, and collapses the chaos into one understandable reality. It is our tendency to believe that reality as we know it is the “real” reality. This is simply not the case.

This could be called subjectivity, which many people have a problem with. It must be understood that just because there are other possibilities besides what you “know” about your reality, it does not take away from the reality or logic of it. It is to say that what really exists is an infinitely complex array of possibilities, essentially chaos, something like white noise. That does not make reality nonsensical or arbitrary. Within this chaos there exists many different logical possibilities. What you perceive is one possibility. That does not make what you know, or any of the possibilities, illegitimate. It can be perfectly logical, and observably true. It’s just to say that it not the ONLY thing that is true. This is something that tends to be tricky for people. The concept that it is possible for more than one thing to be right, and for that to not take away from the rightness of whatever it is that you think you know.

Just a little bit ago, I was laying in bed watching Pineapple Express. I decided to turn over, while it was on, and close my eyes, with the possibility of falling asleep to take a nap. I have this thing where sometime I can kind of see things¬†with my eyes closed, like the images that are in my subconscious mind at the time. Anyways, I was watching these images, and they kept getting more and more vivid. Also, something happened where it seemed that my vision started having a depth. Like it wasn’t just a nothingness of having my eyes closed, but like I was looking into actual space. I started noticing more and more distinctions in the blackness, and thus the images became more like actual pictures/movies, less and less vague. While all of this was happening, I was trying to feel energy in the body, and use that energetic feeling to attempt to lose the feeling of boundaries associated with the physical body. I was having success with that too, so all of this was happening at once and it was awesome. Then all of the sudden I heard my mom say something. I was not sure if it was real or not, and I kinda thought that I had just heard it in my mind, and that it wasn’t real. I just ignored it. Then I heard my girlfriend say something(she was laying next to me in my bed in real life), and I could tell by what she said that it wasn’t real.

Shortly after that I opened my eyes. I was still laying in my bed. I looked over, and my girlfriend was asleep. I looked at the TV, and the movie I had been watching was still on. I watched a few minutes of it, and it was like real parts of the movie. Then I stood up, and began to wonder whether I was dreaming or not. I began to feel very confused, completely unsure whether I was dreaming or not. I started to walk towards the living room, and I really hoped my parents wouldn’t be out there; this was because I was feeling very uneasy and nervous, because I really had no idea if I was dreaming or not, and I did not want to interact with my parents while this was the case. I walked into the kitchen, and was leaning towards it being real. I opened the fridge, and got myself some food.¬†Then I went to get a drink, and I decided that I should figure out for sure whether I was dreaming or not. I did the clock technique, and I found out that I was dreaming. Figuring this out overwhelmed me, realizing that something that so accurately resembled reality was actually a dream. It was really like an alternate reality, that closely resembled the “real” reality. Shortly after this, I woke up.

So yea, that was absolutely insane, and totally blew my mind in terms of knowing what is real. When I actually woke up, after a minute I did a reality check again, because I was still somewhat confused feeling, and I wanted to make sure it was real.