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I would like to share something I have intuitively felt for quite some time, regarding the story of Jesus and Judas. It was later that I would find that it has precedent, in ancient gospels like the gospel of Judas, as well as in general with the majority of the biblical text.

I believe that the story of the crucifixion is very much a story about overcoming death. Jesus understood that he had to die. He asked Judas to have him killed. I assume that Judas originally had a very difficult time accepting this. Eventually, he did what Jesus asked of him, and eventually it would be interpreted as a betrayal. Judas later killed himself. This could have been out of guilt, or it could have been in the same vein as Jesus himself, overcoming death.

The message of Christ is Universal. It has nothing to do with any boundary which presumes a separation. The ‘good news’ is that all material/physical separation has been transcended, when death was overcome by yeshua(jesus). ‘The Kingdom,’ Perfect Reality, already exists, in a timeless realm which has been reached. When we are ready for it, through easing our own bias differentiations, we can realize it for ourself. This is how we ‘take up the cross,’ become like Christ, go into our own place, the Kingdom.

I would like to share a little writing which demonstrates correspondences for Eastern terms and concepts with more elaborately explained concepts/design. This was inspired by a description of how the Universe came/comes into existence by John Lily, and I thought of the correspondences. There is more you could do, with various spiritual systems, but here is what I have for now.

Before Beginning(of Time/Space): Sunyata(emptiness/void)
From void Came Brahma(Growing/Choosing-God)
Then Self(Atman) was realized; Consciousness-Without-Object
Then the first notion of an Object arose; Unity(of time/space), 1
Then polarity arose, which would always equal out to 0, all the way up to infinity.

That which becomes all experiences: Brahma
That which is the experience itself: Vishnu
Spontaneous creation & destruction of every reality/moment from Void: Shiva
Sensual-Body: Soma

Neurologically speaking, dopamine and serotonin are two of the primary NeuroTransmitters. Really Neuro-Psychology is a complex game, involving many potential variables and interactive mechanisms. Nonetheless, I am writing this to provide some basic NeuroLogical structure to this common knowledge of the brain, and the nervous system.

Now, let us explore the repetition of habit vs. novelty, and our pursuit and avoidance of each. These basic principles would hold true in both spatial and temporal dimensions. Dopamine, Dopa, sets off our projected fulfillment mechanisms. Based on past conditioning, we create an ‘object’ or ‘process’ to associate with the essential want or need that we feel. When we see a girl who we find attractive, we begin getting excited. We have been conditioned to be attracted to this ‘object’, or ‘process,’ and the dopamine starts going off when it is perceived as being possible.

Now, Serotonin is designed to associate with actual experiences of pleasure. When you are actually being fulfilled in your desires, the serotonin starts flowing. Now, you may perceive something you desire, and start using up some Dopamine. But if you are not being fulfilled, not getting that Serotonin kick, you’re gonna trend towards what they call ‘novelty addiction.’ Novelty is basically good, it is only ‘bad’ when we cannot be fulfilled in our desires. Thus the push is to deny our desires, rather increase the potential for fulfilling those desires. This is where we go wrong as a society. And, looking at these basic principles of Neuro-Psychology, we can describe its process and reasoning intelligently and specifically.

Alright, well this is a mathematical thought I just went through now. It is associated with the general idea, and this seems to be the place to put it. It has incredibly profound implications. Now, this is ‘math,’ and if you think you don’t like math you might not really ponder what is being said with these equations, perhaps because you will think they are complicated. These are actually very intuitive ideas, expressed using math. If you understand the ‘idea,’ the math makes perfect sense.

THEREFORE v is inversely proportional to h
THEREFORE v is directly proportional to h

THEREFORE E is inversely proportional to m
THEREFORE E is directly proportional to v
CREATE variable t, which is equivalent to E
CREATE variable s, which is equivalent to m

c = speed of light
c is proportional to v^2
THEREFORE E is directly proportional to v^2
DUE TO E-t equivalence, t=mv^2
DUE TO t-v equivalence, v=mv^2
DUE TO m-s equivalence, v=sv^2
DUE TO v-c equivalence c=sv^2
c = speed of photon in ’empty’ space

We can thus operationally define empty space. Empty space is what exists in a theoretical state of no mass, or physicality. We can say this is equivalent to there being no spatial dimensions, ‘space,’ hence variable s. Let us then create variable z, representing ‘zero’ spatial dimensions. Since z represents empty space, we can define a limit of 0 for variable z. 2-dimensionally, on a graph, we can represent this spatial dimension by x. Let us give t, ‘time,’ the graphical dimension y.

z(as x approaches 0) = xv^2
DUE TO E-v^2 equivalence, z=xE
DUE TO z = 0x
z = E(x/0x)
DUE TO E-t equivalence
z = t(x/0x)
DUE TO E-t , t-y, and x-z equivalence
LIMIT OF x(as x approaches 0) = y(x/0)
THEREFORE y-x equivalence
THEREFORE LIMIT OF x(as x approaches 0 from either positive or negative numbers) = LIMIT OF y(as y approaches 0 from positive or negative numbers)
ALSO LIMIT OF x(as x approaches infinitely large positive or negative numbers) = LIMIT OF y(as y approaches infinitely large positive or negative numbers)

These limits essentially define the x and y axes. These axes define perfect 90 degree angles, defining a circle. Since these 90 degree angles are themselves perfect, due to the symmetry of the equivalent limits, they are actually unable to be ‘perfectly’ modeled, due to the assymetry of inversely non-equivalent limits. This inability to perfectly model data is related to chaos math. Due to this perplexing fact of both equivalent and non-equivalent limits approaching 0 and infinity, we can only define a bisecting line by another limit. That limit is 90 degrees, as it approaches itself.
Angle = 45+(90 degrees, as it approaches itself)

Due to this impossibility of ‘perfect’ modeling, we cannot say that the graph 100% accurately contains the form of the graph. It is always slightly disturbed by the existence of the limits. Therefore, despite the fact that four 90 degree angles defines the circle which defines a graph, four ‘quadrants’ cannot be said to ultimately define the reality of this equation. Since 90 degrees is always approaching itself, it can have virtually any value, from negative infinity to positive infinity. Therefore, circles can be defined according to virtually any point, graphically, in 2-dimensional space. In 3-dimensional space, these can be represented by ‘balls.’

We can, using this methodology, define the first three dimensions, using the model of angles bisected by lines. The 1st dimension has no line, therefore 360 degree angle. The 2nd dimension has 2 180 degree angles, bisected by 1 line. The previously define equation can therefore be demonstrated to define the third dimension, using a standard infinitely-close-to-perfect 2-dimensional graph.
The x-axis is defined by y approaching 0
The y-axis is defined by x approaching 0
3-Dimensional reality is defined by a perfect 360 degree circle.

The implication is that we can, in 3-Dimensional reality, understand the ‘graphical’ representation of 3-dimensional reality, from a 4th-dimensional perspective. That would be defined by a perfect 3-dimensional ‘ball’ that is defined by being perfect in terms of 2 dimensional lines spreading out at every possible angle(approaching infinity).

Last night, I worked on developing a theoretical model that could map out the cycles in which the elements of reality play themselves out over time. I’m guessing I would lose interest if I went too deeply into detail of the logic behind my formula, but I will go into it a bit. I’ll also be clear on the math that I am doing, so you can see for yourself how it works out.

The periodic table of elements represents all of the possible elements, based on electron counts in the atomic structure. The elements of the final family of the table are called the noble gases. They have perfectly stable electron configurations. There are 6 of them. 8 is the standard number of valence electrons for perfect stability. This also corresponds to the 8 notes of the music scale. Beyond this, there are 8 families to the periodic table, representing common number of valence electrons, which represents resonant energies. My theory is that these resonant energies represent pure space-time, and thus seeing their pattern results in understanding the patterns of all space and time. It is this general thought process that guided the explanation that follows.

Each noble gas represents the completion of a cycle. The completion of the cycle is represented by the number 8, referring to the 8 types of elements. Since you are adding layers to the perfection through each of the 6 noble gases, you therefore multiply 8 times itself for each stage. Thus you end up getting 8^6. This gives you 262,144, which means that a total of 262,144 units represent a cycle, sub-divided into 6 sections. In order to calculate, you must have a beginning and ending date in order for the calculations to work. You must choose these dates intelligently, based on the beginning and ending of cycles. December 28 is the final new moon of 2012, representing the end of the old cycle and the beginning of the new. So, you take the total number, and you divide by 8. You repeat this process of diving by 8 5 times, so that including the original, you have your 6 steps. Each of the numbers represents something significantly novel occurring.

At first, this was just mathematical and scientific theory. I decided to test it out, and see how it holds up with history. I decided a good place to start would be the formation of the Earth. I will start with the date of the formation of earth, in number of years ago, and then give the date given for each of the 6 stages, as dictated by my calculations. I will then describe what significant event, if any, took place around that time.
1. 4,540,000,000 – Formation of planet
2. 567,500,000 – Time after development of simple animals, shortly before insects/arachnids/crustaceans
3. 70,937,500 – Dinosaurs died out
4. 8,867,187.5 – Development of great apes
5. 1,108,398.438 – Homo Erectus
6. 138,549.8047 – Modern Homo Sapiens
Timeline of evolutionary history of life – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

So, although I was confident in the theory behind it, I was at first totally unsure of what would result. After getting these significant of results, though, I had to try it again. I would formulate the new scale based on the last event of the prior scale. So, the emergence of modern homo sapiens.

1. 138,549.8047 – Modern homo sapiens
2. 17,322.47559 – Beginning warming of globe
3. 2,165.309448 – Major leap in thought and spirituality. Socrates, Buddhism, Christanity, Taosim, Judaism, etc)
4. 270.6636811(1742: Shortly before USA being founded)
5. 33.83296013(1979: Cold War escalates in the West due to Soviet invasion of Afghanistan)
6. 4.229120016(September 2008: Global financial crisis)

Wow. Now I’m feeling pretty excited, cuz at both time scales it has worked perfectly. Now I decide to make one more, based on the end of 2012. I’m torn between what day to end it on. I assumed December 21st at first, due to its popularity. But when looking at the moon chart, the new moon is exactly one week later, on the 28th. Intuitively, this seemed like a better ending point. Based on later considerations, I was to find that this, indeed, seems to be the best ending date. Here I calculate from the time of the start of the global financial crisis until the end of december 2012, which on the 28th should represent the completion of the cycle. I’m here converting the units of time from years to days.

1. 1,543.628806 – September 2008: Global financial crisis
2. 192.9536007 – March 4: Republic of Congo capital blasted. 150 killed, 1,500 injured. Part of global turmoil
3. 24.11920009 – December 4
4. 3.014900011 – December 25: Christmas Day
2. .3768625014 – December 28
1. .0471078127 – December 28

So, the first two scales of time were fulfilled perfectly. The final scale previously mentioned has thus far been perfectly fulfilled. It does make three further predictions, though, in terms of specific dates. December 4, December 25, and December 28. It remains to be seen how these turn out. It seems possible if not probable that the smaller the scale the more difficult it would be to be perfectly accurate. Nonetheless, it’s been perfect thus far, so we may as well see how it goes into the projected future over the next month.

The Infinity symbol holds secret meaning about the energies of reality. The central point, where the two ‘o’s’ meet, is the central point. From here the energies expand outwards in two polar directions, which keeps the energy balanced. As the energies expand outward, they spin back towards the center in a rotation that is cyclical, or elliptical. All the energy is fused in that central point, where the energy can infinitely cycle through itself. Image

“Secret of the Golden Flower” is a brilliant chinese alchemical text, and I am going to explain some of the principles mentioned within it. What it calls the Heavenly Heart refers to the pineal gland, or the third eye. This is an electro-magnetic navigator. It is connected to undistorted space-time signalry, which is the 4th dimension. The 3rd dimension is actually the product of space-time distortion; the space-time itself exists, in non-distorted form, in a 4th dimension. The 4th dimension consists of the inter-play of the pure elements of reality, without distortion. 3rd dimensional reality consists entirely of the distortion of these signals by the interplay of electro-magnetic forces between 3-dimensional bodies. In “Secret of the Golden Flower,” a text on Chinese Alchemy, the pineal gland, or third eye, is called the Heavenly Heart. It is further called seed-water, eros.

When space-time creatively expresses itself in 3-dimensional space, a dichotomy is created. One manifestation of this dichotomy is between anima and animus. Animus is the masculine principle, of heaven. Anima is the feminine principle, of earth. The anima is the substrate of form. She is the essence of change itself, and is found within the body.

The pineal gland is related to the eyes. The eyes are like emissaries for the third-eye. The eyes, as pineal emissaries, are designed to specifically tune in to a defined range of electro-magnetic signals. The pineal gland, being in touch with the periodic cycles of the elements, is able to take in information from this limited band-width and sort it according to these patterns, which are found everywhere, at all scales. This ‘Heavenly Heart’ is the dwelling of the animus. The animus lives in the eyes during the day, and is what allows us to see. At night, it is what gives us our dreams.

There is an energy center inside of your stomach about an inch inside. This is sometimes called the tan t’ien, in Zen and other schools. “Secret of the Golden Flower”  calls this thought-earth, the Heavenly Heart of the middle house. This is the house of wu wei, effortless effort, doing without doing. It is the energy-center of intuition. The dwelling place of the anima is in the heart, called ‘the lower heart’ in chinese alchemy. Here is the energy-center of our desire, of our raw passions and emotions. It is here where our bare humanity lies. In your throat is the energy center for self-expression and creativity. This is called spirit-fire, and it is the light, the logos, or the word.

The basic method is circulating light and energy through the pineal gland, through which one gains mastery of the anima, which is the principle of limitation. From Secret of the Golden Flower, “If this method is followed, plenty of seed-water will be present of itself; the spirit-fire will be ignited, and the thought-earth will solidify and crystallize. And thus can the holy fruit mature.”
The meaning is this.
‘Plenty of seed-water will be present of itself”: Through circulating light and energy through the pineal gland, you will naturally be in tune with the patterns of reality. You’ll be in harmony with the Universe.
“The spirit-fire will be ignited”: You will gain touch with the essence of true creativity. Self-expression will flow through you, as if you are a conduit for the energies of the Universe-at-large.
“The thought-earth will solidify and crystallize”: Your very instincts will begin to function according to the patterns of the Universe. Therefore, you will have succeeded in bringing undistorted ‘heavenly’ signals, or elements of 4th-dimensional space-time, into this very physical world.

The phases of the Moon represent the cycles of time itself. From these cycles, all time flows. From the biggest to the smallest scales, as a fractal, all things flow according to these cycles. The image of Tao, with its yin and yang, represent the flowing of this process. You can see the cycles in the Trigrams of the I Ching. The Waxing Moon, as the moon is growing, represents the increase of yang-energy. The Waning Moon represents the increasing yin-energy.

The I Ching trigram is a diagram of the flowing of the times, the seasons, the play of energy-essences. The solid line represents yang-energy, and the split line represents yin-energy. Here is a key to interpretation. The bottom line represents self-expression, as in the subject The top line represents the object, as in object of awareness. The middle line represents the meeting of the subject and object, the verb, activity. In the first sentence of trigram interpretation, I will break down the meaning of each line of the trigram according to the structure bottom-middle-top.

Earth: yin-yin-yin: No self-expression, nothing to do, nothing to observe
This represents the Dark Moon and the New Moon. Notice the total yin-energy, ‘darkness,’ silence. It represents a sort of extreme passivity, or acceptance of all. Since is the transition point linking the end point and the beginning point, this is the ultimate complexity. This means that the yin, feminine, Goddess is technically more primary, or ultimate.

Thunder: yang-yin-yin: Self-expression, nothing to do, nothing to observe
Waxing crescent moon, occurs in the beginning of the process of increasing visibility, amount of light. The yang energy is beginning its ascent. Life is beginning to flower. It represents an inner passion. A territorial sense, desiring freedom of movement and expression. beginning of the ‘God’ chasing the ‘Goddess,’ the masculine principle

 Water: yin-yang-yin: No self-expression, activity, nothing to observe
Waxing Half Moon, of increasing light. Immersion into reality. When doing something, there is only that doing. When writing, just writing.

 Mountain: yin-yin-yang: No self-expression, no activity, something to observe
Waxing Gibbous moon, nearing complete light. In awe of the magnificence of what is naturally there. Awareness.

 Lake: yang-yang-yin: Self-expression, activity, nothing to observe
Full Moon, complete light. Self-chosen activity. Conscious decision-making.

Fire: yang-yin-yang: Self-expression, no activity, something to observe
Waning Gibbous Moon, decreasing light. Watching and feeling, but doing nothing. Self-expression fulfilled through observation.

 Wind: yin-yang-yang: No self-expression, activity, something to observe
Waning Half Moon, decreasing light. Read and react. Play-acting. Maya- illusion. Lila, reality-as-a-play.

 Heaven: yang-yang-yang: Self-expression, activity, something to observe
Perfect unity. Personal preferences guide actions, and it fits perfectly with the situation you are in, and the people, who are in full agreement.

So this is the basic pattern through which time travels. These are the ‘seasons’ of nature and life. This process and these elements are the source of all mythology, rituals, and general compulsions. At any scale of time, or any scale in space, range of influence, reality functions through this essential process.

There are four layers of the one mind, the one consciousness. By descending through these four levels, you eventually get material reality from the realm of infinity. The Jewish Qabalists called these layers the four worlds. They are, truly, as four realms of existence. I will explain these four worlds, including the qabalistic names for them, as well as some correspondences to elucidate the meaning. Note that these exist in a wide-scale, as in the creation of the entire universe. Yet, simultaneously, it is possible to note this process occurring within yourself. The entire pattern, or process, of creation is going on within yourself, right now. You must simply learn to become aware of the process as it occurs.

In order from deepest level to most surface level…

1. Qabalists called this the world of atzilut, meaning ‘eminated from,’ as in eminated from the Infinite. This is also called the archetypal world. It represents the collective unconscious, the sum of all the archetypes, the shared, essential elements of experience. This is a masculine principle; it represents stillness. This is because it does not change. This is the Y of the tetragrammaton, most holy name of god in the hebrew tradition: YHWH.

This is yud, ‘Y’

2. This is called the world of b’riah, creation. This represents the soul. Alternatively, this represents the individual subconscious. This is one individual arrangement of the archetypes. This represents the feminine principle. It is the first H of the tetragrammaton.
This is heh, ‘H’

This is called yitzirah, the world of formation. It is said that in this world, concrete plans of creation are made, concrete steps to manifestation. It is also said that emotional involvement occurs at this stage. This represents the conscious mind. It is the essential premise, or assumption, behind any experience. It is the imminent potential for experience, or perception. You could also say this represents the ‘medium’ behind Marshall McLuhan’s famous phrase, “The medium is the message.” This is the W of the tetragrammaton.
This is vav, originally ‘waw,’ W.

4. This is called the world of assiyah, action. This represents physical reality, material existence. It is called ‘The Kingdom.’ At this level there is apparently total independence. This is the ultimate goal, or purpose, of creation. This is the ego. It manifests as external ‘things,’ or as self-driven actions. It is the message in McLuhan’s “The medium is the message.” This is the 2nd H of YHWH.

This is the tetractys, mystical shape of Pythagoreas. It is represented using the four letters of YHWH, though. The top point represents the first world, the collective unconscious, and working your way down is working your way towards the most surface level of consciousness. Notice how the letter of each of the worlds is added onto the existing one each level down, but the existing letter remains. This is because the influence of the previous ‘letter,’ or world, or level of consciousness, continues to have its impact on each level down. And yet it moves more into the background at that level.

For things to flow smoothly, efficiently, and desirably, each level must have a trust in the level above it. This is because any given level is a limited selection of the options presented at the higher level. Ego is a selection, an identification, of the possibilities generated by the essential premise of the conscious mind. Similarly, the premise of the conscious mind is a singular manifestation of the wider pattern of elements that is the individual sub-conscious. The individual subconscious is one possible arrangement of the archetypes, the elements in the collective unconscious. By definition, then, no level can ever know more than, or even as much as, the level above it. Thus if one acts without trusting the level above, confusion inevitably follows.

I would like to propose a theory about the structure of reality. I was just inspired of it, and instinctually it seems very exciting to me. It unites the fractal theory of the Universe with wave-particle duality, the knowledge of left-right brain hemispheres, and the idea of the Universe as Information. I am personally very excited about this right now, but this may be an example of something that is difficult to properly communicate the signifiance of. Lol. We will see. Plus it is quite long, so there is that. I wanted to make a visual model to help illustrate exactly what I am talking about, but I found that was not going to be a task I could do so quickly and easily. Therefore, I decided against, and to just continue my writing. Hopefully this will interest some, anyways. lol.


If you look deeply, you will see that the wave-particle duality mirrors a duality within our own brain, the duality of the left and right hemispheres. First let me propose a visual description of this concept. This can be seen as the operating ‘formula’ behind reality, creating all aspects of reality, at all scales. It is, of course, not limited to this visual-model, but to understand the correspondance between all of this you will have to understand the underlying principle.


To make the principle more clear, I am going to begin with linear, left-hemisphere, ‘particle-reality’ explanation. It seems, to me, arbitrary to try to find what comes ‘first,’ or is ‘more real,’ particle or wave. They are mutually dependent. So we will imagine a single particle, or a single dot in empty space. Consider the particle going ‘down’ and ‘to the right’ a certain amount of distance(there is, of course, no ‘up-down’ or ‘left-right’ in empty space, but we use this phrasing to assist in understanding). After this, it would return backwards in one of the initial planes, or dimensions, and continue in the same direction in the other. So, supposing the first movement was down and to the right, the next would be back up, and still to the right. At each point where the motion changed directions, a new particle is created.


It continues this process, each path being exactly equal in terms of distance and spatial relationships. It would do this until it reached the end of its ‘field,’ or the boundaries of what ‘it’ is, which most generally be defined by the ‘observer,’ or the linear-model imposed upon it. This linear-model would impose the general ‘system,’ in terms of material appearance, and the distinctions between the various ‘things.’ Once it reached this end, it would go directly up or down, whichever created a straight line in closure. It would then repeat the exact same process in reverse, down and to the left. Once it reached the end, you would have a series of particles/dots in a straight lines defining the ‘top’ and ‘bottom.’ To give a description of a visual depiction of this particular part of the process, let me mention the infinity sign. Suppose that you viewed the infinity sign in terms of a dot at every change of motion. Notice how it creates a close-system, whereby you can continuously repeat this process of motion. That is not exactly the same, but it helps you to understand.


Upon the completion of this, it would repeat the process, only this time going exactly half the distance horizontally. It would go right then left, creating another perfect creation of equi-distant lines defining the top and bottom, this time each point having half the distance. It could theoretically repeat this process ad-infinitum, creating a more and more complex, and more and more ‘dense,’ or ‘subtle’ system. The model composed after each left-right rundown could be seen as its own ‘dimension,’ or ‘scale’ of reality. The ‘reality’ of what is ‘really there’ would be an incomprehensibly complex pattern of particles, getting infinitely more complex as it continuously repeats this basic pattern, which defines its organizational structure. One could only possibly perceive the system to the capabilities of his own mind to organize the material. The infinite repetition of the pattern would not be recognized by the observer. It would be seen only to the degree of subtlety capable of being perceived by the mind of the observer. This would imply his degree to create meaningful distinctions, and he would organize the scale he was able to perceive according to his own pre-defined models or maps.


Now let me explain how this ties into the wave-model of the Unvierse. As I said, the particle-model just provides an understandable baseline for physical reality. Every single particle in this logical-model for particle-distribution would emit its own energies,  and the energies of each of these particles would interact with each other to create an even more(much more) complex model of what is there. Note that the observer is an integral part to this process. Through observation, information is created about the available data of mass and energy, particle and wave. The particles and waves, then, are organized according to the modeling of this information, provided by the observer. Thus you can see the usefulness of this model of reality, as it unites many of the exciting new theories about reality. This can be seen as a mathematical fractal pattern repeating, creating the infinite depth of matter and energy.  Beyond this, the observer, consciousness, is an essential part, for it must compute the available Information; Information is the essence of the Universe.